If I’d known goodbye was forever,
I would’ve held you a little longer,
kissed you just one more time.
Had a last look at your smile,
before I turned my face away,
so you couldn’t see my tears.
Maybe gone down by the river,
proud of what we’d once had,
but never looking back again.
Hesitated right by our bench,
seeing us sitting arm in arm,
smiling beneath the moonlit sky.
The wounds you put on my heart,
will eventually turn into scars,
then the memories can fade.
Some long distant far off time,
I wont think of you once,
from sunrise until I fall asleep.
One day a smile will set hope free,
to go wake my sleeping heart,
so it can chance love once again.
Despite the somewhat seemingly cynical title which refers to how it felt to me, the door is open for this person, always has been and always will be. She did drift back into my life for a short while since I wrote this poem, but sadly drifted back out again. Maybe she’ll drift into my life again, who knows, she will always be welcome.
A while after writing Goodbye Forever I discovered that Keith Urban described emotions w-a-a-y better than I ever could in his completely amazing song You’ll Think Of Me (with an utterly Fantastic Video). Avril Lavigne also has a great songs I’m With You & My Happy Ending that are a lot better than my efforts (also My Happy Ending has a Great Music Video).
See the poem Six Years On for a more recent poem and reflection on the whole situation.
It’s been many years since it all happened and still there is a corner of my heart that is hers and always will be. One of my favourite films is Land Girls there is a bit where Stella narrates at the end of the film that beautifully sums it all.
“At that moment I thought I would never be happy again but there is always hope just as there are some things that always remain in the heart. “